An Epiphany

I'm telling you, biking has become my new therapist. I was in a funk all day, and when Mike got home, I made a mad dash to get things situated so we could go on a ride together. The thoughts, frustrations, and confusions of the day swirled through my mind as the miles past beneath me. After racing up a couple of steep hills, my body sank into an exhausted sense of relaxation, and my mind became focused. "I'm living with a mindset of what- ifs, instead of the reality of what is." The words kept passing through my head, piercing my heart deeper each time. I'm my own worst enemy. I'm controlled by fears, and insecurities. What if I fail? What if this friendship hurts me in the end? What if they really don't like me? What if I'm making the wrong decision? Unfortunately, those what-ifs paralyze me into inaction, keep me from experiencing true friendship, rob me of the richness life has to offer. The road continued to pass underneath, as a sense of resolve and hope swelled within me. God isn't finished with me yet! These are old demons I've fought my entire life, but God has brought me so far these past few years, and I know He'll bring me further still. It's hard to despair because of where I am now when I look at where I was. He is able! The sun set in the sky, and it was time to pedal home. I wonder what new discoveries lie ahead the next time I hit the road on two wheels!