A Run

Here's a breakdown of today's run...

1. Run five miles

2. Eat breakfast at East West Cafe

3. Run three miles

4. Assess that I am, indeed, still alive then sign up for a Fourth of July 10k

An Epiphany

I'm telling you, biking has become my new therapist. I was in a funk all day, and when Mike got home, I made a mad dash to get things situated so we could go on a ride together. The thoughts, frustrations, and confusions of the day swirled through my mind as the miles past beneath me. After racing up a couple of steep hills, my body sank into an exhausted sense of relaxation, and my mind became focused. "I'm living with a mindset of what- ifs, instead of the reality of what is." The words kept passing through my head, piercing my heart deeper each time. I'm my own worst enemy. I'm controlled by fears, and insecurities. What if I fail? What if this friendship hurts me in the end? What if they really don't like me? What if I'm making the wrong decision? Unfortunately, those what-ifs paralyze me into inaction, keep me from experiencing true friendship, rob me of the richness life has to offer. The road continued to pass underneath, as a sense of resolve and hope swelled within me. God isn't finished with me yet! These are old demons I've fought my entire life, but God has brought me so far these past few years, and I know He'll bring me further still. It's hard to despair because of where I am now when I look at where I was. He is able! The sun set in the sky, and it was time to pedal home. I wonder what new discoveries lie ahead the next time I hit the road on two wheels!

Back In The Saddle... Or Running Shoes

Today, I ran one mile! It's been many weeks since I've gone for a run. My back held up pretty well, so I think I'm confident enough to start back up working towards my half-marathon goal. I must confess, however, that while I was running I was lusting after a bike ride (I know, I know, I was unfaithful!) Running is a challenge for me. I'm not good at it, so I really have to work at it to reach my goals. It takes a great deal of determination for me to lace up my running shoes and hit the road, but there is great reward in conquering each new mile. Running is good for me, if not for my body, then for the building of my mind and of my character. It's like a close friend, not the one you call up for a laugh or for a fun time; but the one who accepts you as you are, and challenges you to be even more.

Soul Food

Yesterday, my wonderful husband watched the kids so I could go for a bike ride. I rode 15 miles, and conquered some pretty steep hills (one conquered me). It was absolutely wonderful. I love being out on the road thinking, singing, praying... it's soul soothing. It was so nice that I don't even mind the protest cries of my leg muscles this morning!